Peace of Mind

[Littlepaw]

Littlepaw sat alone in the clearing. She was gazing down at a piece of prey. It was thin and pathetic looking really, Leaf-bare was getting the worse of Lighteningclan. Many were going without food everyday, but the important cats were being feed. The Queens, the Elders, and the kits, all of them were doing good for now. As for the warriors and apprentices, they went without food so they could feed everyone else. Littlepaw hadn't eaten in a few days, but she felt little fatigue. She was granted the chance to eat prey and not traveling herbs, but now that she looked at the dead mouse she wanted to vomit. She pushed the skinny little mouse away with her small black paw. Littlepaw was a small tiny black she-cat with normal brown eyes. She was no beauty to be spoken of, not like a Queen or Whitepaw and Poppypaw. No she was just a plan boring looking she-cat. Her younger brother was Starchpaw and he was more of a good looker. He had a beautiful soft golden pelt with darker golden spots and his brown eyes seemed to be more shiny then hers. He had thin long legs and a good growing muscle chest. When they two of them where middle age kits, 3 or 4 moons old, their mother was killed. Her body was brought back to camp by Bloodclaw,a warrior of Lighteningclan, and the story he told was that she was killed by Snowclan cats but the war was over at that time. Littlepaw was no longer that shy kit who feared everything, she became distant and gray. Letting out a sigh she didn't notice the footsteps of an approaching cat.

[Poppymask]

Poppypaw padded out of the apprentice den. Her big forest green eyes scanning the clearing with a gentle smile on her face. She saw Littlepaw sitting alone. She had noticed that Littlepaw had become distant. She looked at her with concern in her eyes. Like Littlepaw her mother was dead too. She missed Orangemask greatly but she knew that her mother would want her to go on with her life instead of dwell on the past. She thought of the she-cat from Waterclan she had met. Brighteyes an how they had found out that she was really of Snowclan blood and that she was the daughter of the now dead queen Softstep. She padde towards Littlepaw. Littlepaw? Are you ok? she asked her with concern in her voice.

[Littlepaw]

Littlepaw raised her brown gaze to look away in disgust. Why was it the beauty that Littlepaw envied that walked up to her. Poppypaw really was a kit of Orangemask, a shining ray of light. Poppy was like a forest flower shining the in sun that slipped through the trees. A living beauty who could get any tom that she desired, she was something of perfection. Even her voice was something of a angel's call. "I'm fine Poppypaw, just not hungry. You can eat it." Littlepaw pushed the prey over to Poppypaw and still looked away. The black she-cat felt that if she looked at the pretty young she-cat her eyes would melt because they were to ugly to handle such perfection.

[Poppymask]

Poppypaw flattened her ears out of sadness when she looked at her with disgust. D-Did I do something wrong? she asked her voice shaking slightly. She sat down and tilted her head to the side. She usually got weird looks from everyone because of her views on the world and how she acted a lot but she had never gotten a look of disgust from someone she thought was at least her friend. She frowned. I'm not dumb Littlepaw I know something's wrong... she meowed quietly shuffling her paws. Poppy was oblivious to her beauty. She actually thought that Littlepaw was a beautiful she-cat and she didn't pay no mind to the toms that stared at her around the clan.

[Littlepaw]

Littlepaw turned away from the she-cat when she began to ask questions about the inner feelings she had about the shining beauty beside her. They always seem to know the wrong time to press on matters that are better left alone to burn with a dark flame. Oblivious was the poppy beside her and she felt it was not her place to bring tears to the beauty, so she went around the truth and gave a response more gentle. "Well, how about we say that you should be thankful with what you have Poppypaw. Don't ask why or what I mean by it. I'm sure you can figure it out on you own." Littlepaw and turned to speak with Poppypaw and turned away once she was done. Since she had spoke to a topic that could be a dark one, Littlepaw felt that it would be bad if she had gotten up and left Poppypaw, thought she had a strong desire to do just that. Of course if the she-cat did press on the subject more the little black apprentice would have no choice but to speak her mind, harsh or not. of course, she already knew the answer or speech that would follow after her words. A speech of reassurance and support that were lies and nothing words without true meaning. Life was unfair, there were those who were blessed with happiness and those who were blessed with despair. 

[Poppymask]

Poppypaw blinked her eyes at her with little confusion. She could only guess that it might have something to do with not having a mother or a father while Poppypaw had her father still. She sighed softly and didn't question anymore. She felt the awkward silence grow more and more. She laid down next to the small black apprentice and rested her head on her paws and closed her eyes. Feeling she should talk she looked over at Littlepaw. So... Do you wanna go do something? she asked her trying to cheer he up a little. She nudged her gently with her shoulder and tilted her head to the side. She believed that everyone had a reason to be here in the clans. She may not know what but she knew everyone did.

[Littlepaw]

"Why don't you go and hang out with Whitepaw or you mentor?" Littlepaw got to her paws and began to pad away from the pretty tabby she-cat. Was it so hard to see that the black furred she-cat wished to be alone, maybe forever. The small she-cat took a seat alone in the darkness, her back turned to Poppypaw. Her head was hung low and her eyes grew distant once more. Her thoughts were filled with her passed mother and how she was no longer with her. Thought Littlepaw was born in Lighteningclan she didn't believe in Skyclan. So, for this reason she lacked communication with her mother or any other spirit, she was alone.

[Poppymask]

Poppypaw got a little mad and frustrated at her. She hadn't seen Cedarnose in moons and Whitepaw was with her brother probably so she was alone at the moment. Littlepaw, she meowed with a small groan swallowing her anger. But I want to hang out with you. I thought we were friends, she meowed sweetly getting up and following her but stopping a little ways behind her to give her some space so she didn't crowd her. She knew she needed someone and maybe she could help her.

[Littlepaw]

Littlepaw then rolled her eyes at the innocent voice and words of Poppypaw. I want to hang out with you. "Oh please that's only because your first choices are busy doing something else. You just want to be alone so you search for anyone to hang out with. Of course you can get anyone you want to be around you because of those pretty eyes and innocent personality." Littlepaw gave a hiss to herself and turned her head only slightly to gaze at Poppypaw. "Friends? We never speak! How could we be friends?! We are polar opposites. Go speak to my brother. I'm sure you could get him to fall in love with him in no time. You could even make him your lover since you last one seems to be missing. He probably ran off with some other she-cat." At this point Littlepaw didn't care what she was saying now, she just let words slip from her mouth. 

[Poppymask]

Poppypaw just stared at Littlepaw with her mouth slightly open. At the mention of Cedarnose tears formed in her eyes. Then she knew she had to be strong. She blinked her tears away. What did I ever do to you? Do you think you're the only one without friends? As a kit I was all alone. My sister never wanted to play. My mother was always with Batflight or my father, and my father was never around. Now it might as well not be any different. My mother is dead like Spiritclaw as well and Whitepaw is almost always with my brother. The tom I love might as well hate me. My father does try but I still never see him along with my sister. You push everyone away, and for what reason? You need to try to make friends acquaintances something. You can't be alone forever. Everyone and everything has a purpose or a destiny you just need to find yours, she meowed standing her ground.